I feel like I’ve fallen off the end of the earth. Or at least the end of the blogosphere. Sorry to have left you hanging without even a quote to latch onto for clarity.
I kid.
I realize this blog isn’t all that. I haven’t been much of a blogger for about a year and a half. That’s when I fell in love. Something about love stifles the creative process. I write better in chaos, but even chaos isn’t an appetizing muse anymore. I want more. I want depth. I want change. I deserve to function at such a higher plane than I have been in recent days. My work, my love life, my finances–so much has changed. So much has challenged me to the core. This year has been a beautiful struggle indeed.
Maybe there’s something to this whole falling-off-the-end-of-the-earth thing…
“Some of the biggest challenges in relationships come from the fact that most people enter a relationship in order to get something; they’re trying to find someone who’s going to make them feel good. In reality, the only way a relationship will last is if you see your relationship as a place that you go to give, and not a place that you go to take.”
I haven’t been blogging much lately because I’ve been living my life on twitter and condensing my world into 140-character phrases that bestow upon me an instant gratification that blogging doesn’t satisfy. Kinda scary.
My passions include free time with special people and my new weekly event called The Kick Back. It feels awesome to be out there again throwing something new and improved for folks to enjoy. Event planning and community organizing come so easy to me. I like spearheading movements and setting off epidemics of the social variety. I’d like to do more of it in the future on a larger scale.
I’m realizing how dynamic and incredible a lot of my peers are. It is so easy to get mired down in all of the dumb shit that you forget to take notice of the amazing folks around you. One of my personal goals is to celebrate the accomplishments of my esteemed peers and be more vocal about praising others when I see them doing good work.
I’ve been in counseling now for a couple of months and it’s really helping me to break some of the destructive mental cycles that I’ve become accustomed to over the years. It is easy to become caught in the trap of your own mind and important to really get to the bottom of why it is you do what you do. It’s not easy work. In fact, it’s very difficult. But it is liberating and I am inspired by my own growth.
The holidays are around the corner and I’m excited to hang with good people and enjoy food, beverage and create memories. The more you know, the less you need. And I don’t need much these days.
I'm a really cool girl. If you get to know me, you'll never, ever forget me. I'm a connector, a facilitator, a giver, a lover and a generally kind soul. I'm finding my place, finding myself, and moving forward with optimism. Come along if you like.
